It is beautiful outside. Sunny, not too hot, clear. So great! Good Sunday meetings. Going to dinner tonight at Tracee and Rees' home, (unless there is a very important call from Flagstaff, which in reality seems NEVER to come!!)
I always have cause to ponder and think on Sundays. Maybe because they are so peaceful. Today I am thinking about grandmaship: the act of being a Grandma/Punkin.
*It is kind of weird, this role I have. Am I supposed to be fun, or funny, or chubby or skinny, or strict or a spoiler? Am I supposed to be chill or crazy?
*I have a very real fear that at some point I will have grandbabies living far away from me. I will die a little, maybe I'll die a lot, and then I will have to get rich somehow so I can fly whenever I need a grandbaby fix. But what if I am a pain in the butt and I don't know it and my children don't really want me around that much? I don't want to be a pain in the butt. But what if I am? Will they tell me?
*My mother, sweet Elaine, LOVED all of her grandchildren as I am pretty sure all grandmothers do. Can I love them all like she did? Can I love them all like I love my Keegs? He could do anything and it would be phenomenal! Seriously. He is truly amazing.I pretty much think they all will be phenomenal children.
*In Relief Society today, (the women's meeting time,) someone shared that a grandson called his grandmother this morning from a far away place where he was stationed. Oh how sweet! Will my grandbabies call me? What a great day it would be that started out by answering the phone in my older age and hearing, "Hi Punkin."
*I am so excited to welcome this new, sweet boy into his Punkin's chubby embrace!!
*I want to be remembered like my kiddos remember my mom! I'm scared!



