I have been kinda grumpy lately. I find I am not smiling as much. So, I have been thinking. About my family, about life, about my house, my health and about my job, among many other things.
My family: starting to spread out and it is tough to cut those old apron strings.
Worried about each and every one of them
My life: not where I thought it would be at my age.
My house: really getting old and needs alot of work.
My health: just feeling older and starting to hurt here and there and we won't
mention chubbiness!
My job: same ol' thing week after week. Isn't 50 a little old to be unloading a
semi-truck??
Other things: too many to list here.
This is reality. This is life. It's not a bad life, it's a good life. I am not meant to be happy ALL of the time. That is not the Plan. It is what life is made of; ups and downs and downs and ups. Fullfilled and unfullfilled dreams and ideas. Moments of great happiness. Moments of sadness and disapointment. However, what I know is that even when I am not always happy, I always have JOY! I have joy in having my family to love and knowing they love me, I have joy that I have a home not just a house, I have joy that this weary body is still ticking, I have joy that I have a job and can help out financially, and I have joy that I am blessed with an array of trials that help me grow. I taught a lesson once on the difference between happiness and joy. Yes, there is a difference. Think about it. Have a great Sabbath!